Essentially Samantha

 So here I am with my favourite cherry brandy ice lolly, after my husband chased the ice cream man down like Mo Farrah. I have an electric fan on me, and I am still too hot. I probably am suffering more due to Perimenopause. Rotten creature and foul thing that it is. My son is at home with me, and he has another fan on him. The temperature gauge says 27 degrees. It is officially summer, and I hate it. I am more of a winter person. If it is cold, you can always add layers and warm up, but if it's hot, you can't cool down so easily. I am also on a lot of medication that causes my body to not regulate temperature well. I love Autumn. it was when I was born, and I feel much better on rainy days.  The hot weather also means that I could go toxic on my Lithium. It's not a pretty picture. Shaking, stomach cramps, blurred vision, loose stools. Even for some cases, a trip to the hospital.  Summer is not fun for everyone. It has been said that domestic violence goes up in the summe...

For The past week I've been in hospital with the most horrendous pain in my upper stomach. I went in to a +e on Tuesday I had the most vile, hideous pain. The hospital was so busy they had to give me Oramorph in the corridor. It took 45 mins for it to work and it tastes vile. My inflammation markers were so high doctors knew something was going on but not nesscarily what was going on. Of course I had to declare my bipolar. Which led one ignorant prescriber to issue me with a sedative throughout the day. Can't have the bipolar going manic now can we? I assured the nurses who looked concerned every time I refused it that bipolar doesn't work like this. I'm gutted that even in my middle age doctors think it ok to sedate mental health patients all day.