Essentially Samantha

 The cold we all have is absolutely dire. It consists of a head cold that leaves you feeling every tooth in your head throb. Sudafed is king here. Today I had my depot so I had to go to a medical centre to have it. I cannot miss this injection it keeps the psychosis at bay. It works really well for me despite the side effects. I still have not heard about Latuda from the doctors and its been over a week now. We are all flued up so we have decided to cancel the wreath making workshop I was looking forward too. I'm giving away my two tickets to my church family community for 2 people to get in for free. I wouldn't want the tickets to go to waste. There is no way me, Paul and Barry are up to foraging for berries and pine cones for making a wreath. Besides I have no idea where my secateurs are. I stopped off for a spiced chai at the coffee shop on the way back from my depot. I needed a hot drink to carry me home. Strange how I only felt really unwell when I actually got back home. ...

 I see that a little round plaster sums up my mental illness picture. Its what they stick on my bum every other Wednesday at the top of my bottom to keep the antipsychotic from running out of my skin. You see I am battling 3 mental illnesses. Have been all my life although I only found out about them just after i gave birth when I had my first ever proper manic episode. Before I gave birth I used to think I had severe PMT. However looking back now I see that it was the Bipolar all along. I have Bipolar 1, PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder. I am a DBT graduate and have tried most medications apart from having surgery to re set my Vagus nerve, you name the medication and I have had it. The side effects keep me on a strict regime of Lithium and Quetiapine. It holds the mania back incredibly so I can function like a normal human being. To know me you would never know there was anything wrong except sometimes I am not around for long periods. I tend to stop indoors when I am unwe...